Psalms again! Is this fun or is this tough? We’re reading Psalm 39, 40, 41, 53, 55, and 58 today. What are you thinking?
To be honest, it’s hard for me sometimes to read David’s prayers. Some are beautiful and personal and I’m encouraged that he expresses words that I feel myself. But other times…. When he prays for his enemies to be destroyed or for ruin to come to them, I’m uncomfortable. Maybe I’m uncomfortable because I recognize the same evil inclination in my own heart. Maybe I’m uncomfortable because it’s so far from what I think Jesus desires for us. Maybe I’m uncomfortable because I can relate and I have to admit that I’ve had these negative feelings toward people who have done me harm as well.
I have to remind myself that David (in addition to being a man’s after God’s own heart) was a man. He was a warrior. This is the same guy who sent Bathsheba’s husband the front lines or wanted to murder Nabal’s husband for not sharing a meal. He had much bigger concerns and much bigger threats to his life than I do, for sure! David’s humanity makes it easier to relate to him, and it is definitely an encouragement to be honest with the Lord!
In any case, I do believe that what happens to my “enemies” is God’s business, not mine, and I want to leave that up to Him. Letting myself dwell on the negative or wish destruction allows bitterness to grow in my heart and that’s not healthy.